blessings. and lately

sometimes we are blessed to be a blessing. and sometimes, because of my greedy human nature, i don't want to be a blessing. i want to be blessed without being a blessing. it seems logical that the more money i keep for myself, the better off i'll be. however, God is not constricted by logic, or anything else for that matter. as a christian, we know that if you sew sparingly, you will reap sparingly...

i was recently blessed. it was nice to have extra money for life in general. it was nice to be able to send my mom some extra money. but that is not what i was blessed to do. i was blessed to help others. it took alot for me to overcome my greed. now i am back to square one, eating ramen, and bread with hot sauce. but its all worth it. God knows what he is doing, he's God and i'm not.

i saw transformers last night at midnight. it was fun to hangout with different people. the movie was spectaculiar, although some characterization was overdone. it was an incredible flick!

summer school is almost over. it is going by much faster that i had anticipated. the summer has been amazing, but soon i will be in humidless albuquerque - thank ya jesus! i hate humidity.

my little cousin, who is more of a brother to me, is coming to visit me next week. i cant wait to show him the ropes and that there is more to life that what is offered in new mexico. it will be nice, and i am uber pumped.

i am a lover, not a fighter. but i will fight for what i love.